he wasn’t what i thought he’d be
so many men they grow like weeds
though not quite free
he accepts me for me
the woman in his dreams

a spark, a flame ignites my soul
that feeling lost long ago
all that’s left is moving forward
clouds replaced with rainbows
the sun casting shadows

insufficient
no significance
a pebble in a shoe

loose threads
tangled webs
nothing old is new

i know you lied
you said you tried
doomed from the start
we would never survive

nothing stood out
until all of my doubt
slips into fissures
that litter the ground

i started walking and then i ran
hurdles came and i jumped over them
i tripped. i fell. i bled. i cried.
i kept going. i’m a badass. and i can do it myself.
just put my mind to it.
exercise. eat well. have fun along the way.
those trials taught me…made me stronger
so i kept going…

the papers signed
all was decided
she didn’t know she’d be divided
half to him
half for them
”and none for me,” she said and sighed

the first step to healing
the hardest to take
shoes filled with lead
shoulders carrying weight

the second step to salvation
turning to face your fate
one look in the mirror
is fuel for self hate

a field full of flowers
i chose the loveliest one
or did the flower choose me?

once plucked from soil
roots exposed
picked, then planted gently

favorite part
chaotic part
painful part

it came to an end so suddenly
sadness rained down onto me
dark grey clouds form above
as i waited for thunder to come