epiphany

i fucked it all up, just two decades of waiting
wrong time and wrong place, but i wouldn’t change it

did your wife watch us closely? she sat within reach
for a moment, if only, i felt finally seen

the seconds seemed hours, every time i look back
but the words, never said, carry weight. all i lack

is it you that i long for? or simply the you
that my head and my heart and my body once knew

i suppose it’s a wonder, from this moment on
will i know your story? do you care to know mine?

if i had your #, what would i do?
leave it? i can’t til i found out the truth

somehow i am still. and i’m here and beyond
”my chance is used up now,” i say with a yawn

this battle has lasted too long, only now
she hears of a treaty, a ‘maybe’ way out

her trust has worn thin, so she still has her doubts
she can’t find her footing. only muddy, loose ground

but history makes sure we review our mistakes
sometimes we learn that sometimes it’s fate

“relinquish your power,” she thinks, what’s that mean?
the answer comes back, “not to him. to the truth which you seek”